KOTW: Pony Play

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In a previous blog entry, I wrote about pony play and upon rereading it,  I must say most of it still holds true.  Perhaps I would no longer call it my ultimate fantasy since fantasies evolve along with the reality of life.  However, I still think of it and wonder about it whenever I see someone trail riding where I run.  I admit I am envious of those whose lifestyle allows them to experience the reality of pony play.  My kink travels incognito through my life so I will probably meet zombies running in Asbury Park before I pull a cart dressed in pony gear like Onyx.

But what is the appeal of pony play to me?  It is definitely based on my childhood dreams and wishes of becoming a horse and traveling in a herd running free on the plains waiting to captured by the One.  But I think there is also a freedom and release from being me and carrying the weight of my real world with me most of the time.  Perhaps that is one of the perks of being an actor .. to step away from the person you are and become someone else with a different reality.

But there is also a disquieting, fearful aspect of my desire for pony play.  I know I would be totally humiliated with any type of role play which puts pony play firmly at the mile marker of edge play.  I wonder if I could get past that fear and enjoy either the humiliation or the actual play?  Would the act of pony play be erotic to me or would it be the journey to acceptance of the role as pony?  I don’t have the answers.

There are those moments when I am running and fantasizing about Sir and that cart.  I imagine the look on his face as he harnesses me, the feel and smell of the leather and the weight of the cart settling into my hands.  The fear, the excitement, the shame, the knowledge that he has the control over me to make me do this … it makes me stop running and I shudder.   The immediacy of my need overwhelms me simultaneously as intense embarrassment quickens my pulse and my face burns.  The entire narrative of forcing fantasy to become reality is too much for me and I can’t help wondering what if?

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bonimiss only found her kinky side in her early 50s and thankfully found Sir shortly after. She is is a long distance journey with Sir and is constantly amazed at the new and exciting experiences and discoveries. You can contact her at bonimiss through the Submissive Guide Community.
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2 Responses to KOTW: Pony Play

  1. Sammi says:

    Great post – I can see how all of those elements would play into it (fear, excitement, shame, and knowledge).

  2. Wondering “what if” is a great pastime! Always enjoy the journey!

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